Hello everyone! How are you? Did you have a merry, happy Christmas? In my case we did differently, as my grand-parents from both sides didn’t want to celebrate together, in family as usual. So, for the first time in my life, I went to my uncle’s place for Christmas Eve and celebrate Christmas Day with cousins at our home. To be honest, I’ve to say I really liked these changes. I’m 25 and I’ve always had to celebrate Christmas at my grand-parents with many people I didn’t enjoy meeting, hard and sad family reality.😞 So being this year to stay home with some people I really enjoy meeting and spending the day with, was a really good thing for me, kind of a gift.
Today, I decided not to share a recipe, a DIY, a poem and anything else, as I usually do here. I decided to do something different, and just have a chat with you.
2020 wasn’t a particularly good year, obviously. Many people were locked down in their homes, many elders were alone, not able to see anyone, not even their family. Many people got mental health issues and even died because of all this isolation forced on them. Many people lost their job,even their home. Many people lost rights and liberties. American elections got massive fraud. And so on. The world went like crazy and so few people understood why and knew what to do.
For me, 2020 was also a hard year. I lost one of my kitties, Vickie. She died at 15 because of a cold, preventing her from eating. I’ve realized most of my family doesn’t understand me, doesn’t know me. (Well, I kind of already knew that, but still didn’t completely realized.) I would start to tell things and speak to them, to alert them, and most of them would ignore me, or even kind of insult/scold me. Absolutely no understanding. Isolation. And that was hard for me, even if I’m used since young being alone and misunderstood. I also got problems with one of my grand-father, who got angry because some people weren’t invited to my 25th birthday party in Summer. Having your grand-father screaming to you and scolding you because you decided something by yourself, and aren’t guilty of any crime or offense, is very hard. I’ve got moments when my depression went deeper than usual. And I have to leave back to the city for university in September, which was very very hard. Leaving the safe and peaceful countryside for the crazy and dangerous city made me sick. A real nightmare for me. I had to leave it after a month, or I would have gone mad.
But 2020 wasn’t only about bad things actually. I degreed in my Chinese language and culture Master with my small thesis, with a marvelous 18/20. I’ve got to celebrate my 25th birthday with my family and some of my friends. I’ve got my first job for a month (The most successful experience for me this year) I’ve got to take my best friend on a small trip in my favourite amusement park (the Puy du Fou Park).For the first time in years, I could see and enjoy Spring time in the countryside. I reconnected with Nature, with my home that is the countryside. I finished writing one of the books I’ve wanted to write for a long time. (And I hope I’ll be able to tell you more about that soon)
In 2020, I went into difficulties, but I also found some blessings. And I’m not leaving 2020 completely hopeless. 2020 didn’t destroy hope in my heart. It didn’t destroy my inner garden. It didn’t destroy my imagination and inspiration. It didn’t destroy me. It may have destroyed a few things, but doing that, it has cleaned around me, it has cleaned the path before me.
2020 has also seen many of you subscribe to my blog, like my posts. I’ve also created my Patreon Page and so even more content, filling me with joy. When things were exhausting me, were giving me a hard time, this blog was here for me. You were here for me. This blog and you did help me get through these hard moments. By liking my posts, subscribing to my blog, you have shown me that it has value, it is worth something. You were kind of telling me “I like what you do here, keep doing.”, “What you do is good.” And these thoughts have power. I may not rise as fast as others, but I don’t care. All I care about is seeing people enjoying my blog and giving silent support. All I care about is keeping creating content I like and most of you enjoy seeing here.
All that to say, a massive THANK-YOU. Thank you for sticking up with me since the beggining. Thank you for subscribing. Thank you for liking a post, two posts, many posts, all of my posts. Thank you for commenting. Thank you for being here.
For 2021, I’ll keep writing on this blog. I’ll keep creating content for this blog. I’ll keep dreaming with and for this blog.I’ll keep sharing with you on this blog. I wanna keep on the path. Even if sometimes things are very hard for me, even unbearable. I wanna keep going on, because of you, because you gave me the strength I needed when I had none left inside me.
I wish to anyone of you to jump into 2021 with as much hope as me. I wish you all to run into 2021 with big dreams, strength and deep passion. I wish you all the best in the world. I wish you happiness, love, success, anything your heart desires. I wish you strength to get through difficulties coming ahead, as there would always be difficulties in this world.
I wish that we all create a more beautiful and meaningful world in the upcoming years. I wish that we succeed.
I wish you all a happy New Year!
That’s all for today’s post. We shall meet again in 2021. Thank you for passing by and reading my blog.
I’ll talk to you soon in a next post.
Until then, take care of yourself ❤
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